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hey ppl. i have alot to blog abt today.. coz im sad, angry, confused n worried all at the same time. sthg impt juz happen..yup. i juz got to noe that she noes. which explains too many incidents already. eg. y she look at me in such a weird manner.. n y i keeping seeing her ard.hmm. i dunno whether i shld be neutral or wad. shall wait till my bdae.i cried during recess.stupid me. i will not dream or think abt u noe hu.
lyk how many million ppl ask me? poot. i will try to stop u noe wad. i will keep mum if u shuttup! haiya.lost. im veh sad but thats out of the point. yup. the point is.. i trusted u.. i told u. u broke ur promise! y..y muz they do this to me? u all were suppose to keep quiet..but now. nothing is a secret. so the u/u all can u/u all pls confess now. hu broke their promise? hmph. i want to noe hu tell her?! nuts.i ought to find a hole for hiding. n im sick again. coz i was sad? issit psychological that i fall sick? i cld hav told my self to be sick.my sore throat is back n so is my fever.. charmaine finally thinks that rachelchin is nice! yay! gd for her..
anw,i have bcum more matured suddenly..no more childish acts. to forgive n forget. to be observant n keep my mouth shut n not to trust ppl so easily. i've learnt my lesson. im currently not realli looking forward to my bdae coz the worst thing juz happen to me.. n the day i fear most has juz arrived. too fast! one particular wish was unintentionally granted.not realli granted but half granted la. but still.. it happen thru the wrong way n the way i hate it to be.
thx to the mean pple out there to spoil my mood, to spoil my day lyk that. i will not forget.
so what if my birthday is 6 more days? whats the big deal of birthdays anw.. y cant all this happen after that.y? y muz they spoil my excitement.all thx to hu? i dun even noe. sumhow, i dun care whether my birthday is coming or not. since i'll still spent it alone or during trg. nthg special. wads going to happen in 6 days tme? will a miracle change wad has happen? i dunno. therefore my decision shall only be made after my 15th birthday. i pray hard it'll be pleasant.. i pray hard there'll be nice surprises..
oh this blog is no longer save n my last entry will be regarding my bdae..HAH.
its okay if u dun understand.coz i dun.n i hope noone does.=]
black&white ; 7/08/2005 05:31:00 PM
