hey hey. The mar hols is ending! I am sad!!! =( Not that there will be any difference. Sigh-
tues wasnt useful for me. How many times I told myself to just read[not study] through all my notes for the first time? This whole holiday i havent done that. Well done.. Chem is screwed up. Maths is as screwed up too. I cant do a bloody tutorial by myself. No wonder daniel and gives me a C grade. Physical geog is quite huh? That lecturer is getting on my nerves. Econs is one subject I like to pon. HA.I finished reading Where Rainbows End and I like it more than PS I LOVE YOU! One more book to go, The Five People I Meet In Heaven.
wed: had trg in the morning followed by sentosa with Bimbo1 and carmen! Those who want to tan didnt get tan. Those who didnt want to get tan, got burnt. LOL. I really love sentosa. Its just so relaxing!! I could totally forget about all the silly problems I have. How I wish life will be as relaxing too. RUBBISH. I was a mini DJ haha. I had the songs they wanted. (: Smoothie makes me full.
Thurs: CYCLING!!!! :D :D:D ahhaah. Cycling makes me talk nonsense. HAHAHA. I really love cyclingthough it got me burnt and red like a lobster. hahaha. But nvm, its the experience and the feeling of the wind blowing against you. I manage to do abit of hw. Really abit though. AHHA. I am born distracted.
Friday: Double sessions makes me want to die! I was sleepy. I think le lings are cute. Haha. except for one who is so irritating. =/ He totally pissed me off. I have been eating fast food. 6 times a week. I have a big tummy. Haha. fast food is bad. the nutrition talk didnt get into me.
There are so many reasons I can hate VJ about. Look at them, they make me want to puke. GAH. And the whole thingy is so fucked up too. How am I suppose to survive 2 years. If school work makes me sad, trg also makes me depressed, my whole JC life will be gone. Sigh. I need a change!
modern and old-fashioned, we will rule the tt courts.(:
black&white ; 3/17/2007 07:55:00 PM
I never thought i'll say this but I actually miss 4C! lol. I miss going to school quite early, entering the class with the same few ppl. Usually char, diana, yingwai and rachel will be there alr. once in a while, huiyun will reach earlier, followed by nice emo songs played by beat and her guitar. Then there will be clara's screaming with renny and cynnthia. More ppl will start to enter when the lights are already off 10mins ago-a sign that we should have gone down for assembly. Then at the courtyard, there will be andrea alr there and sometimes huda. 2-3 minutes before the bell rings, gwen will start running to our queue, it used to be lily who is always late. After the singing of anthem etc, sit down for annoucements and ppl infront will start talking. eg Fairuz: Liane!! how?!! I didnt do i-dont-know-what! you get the point. Then we will have our silly conversations abt not studying or finishing our hw. Ohyes, yingwai is the only one who sings, occasionally accompanied by gwen. ahha. we'll all start moving off and lessons begin as usual. haha. I am officially feeling nostalgic.
BBQ at yar's was fun! HAha. Her friends were hilarious. Shameless me arrived too early, I was the first! Lol. Before that bought vj skirts and they are so difficult to alter! haii. I am rather happy because I know I am not alone. At least I now know there is someone feeling the same way as I do. (: It feels good to say things out, things that I havent told anyone about, things I consider to be quite embarrassing actually. Haha. Thanks to all who were there, I had a great time! (: Take care, Sammy and Minli! (:
Training was tiring! I was so drained! I have bad muscleaches now! Ouch. All thanks to tina forcing me to use my forehand la! HAHAH. No la, playing with bimbo1 made me feel so handicapped. Im inspired! Haha. Inspired to improvemy forehand though seriously my backhand is gone alr. GONE! Vanish into thin air, snap of the fingers, *poof* ! hahah. SIGH. COMPS IS COMING IN 2 BLOODY WEEKS! AH!!!!! Why cant it be tues so i can skip chem test. RAHH.
emo-ing is my new hobby.
I know I am not alone. Whatever happens, I must bear with it and persevere! Why do I have to mug? =(
black&white ; 3/13/2007 07:22:00 PM
Till now I still don't really get the mass dance. Especially I-want-you dance. Haha. Mass Dance is still fun of course. I'l never dance with a guy for friendship dance, I only know the guy's steps. Haha. =p
I feel so proud of myself for being able to hold back my tears for so long. Sometimes being sad doesn't mean you'll have to cry, I am just feeling numb. I do feel the same way as you guys, in fact, I have other problems to deal with. Will you all ever understand?
Yesterday, I felt the need to be serious, the need to change things and the need to get back my skills. It was so unproductive that I was really getting quite angry with myself. I was really making the effort to improve our current situation. Looks like we just have to depend on ourselves. Sorry bimbo2. I must have really scared you. If my skills continue to get back to normal, I might just be able to hit that ball like I used to. (: Jiayou everyone, as we strive for our goal! WE CAN AND WE WILL! (:
black&white ; 3/10/2007 03:44:00 PM
black&white ; 3/06/2007 02:40:00 PM
I realise certain events can only keep me happy for 2 days. A miserable 2 days. Maybe by recalling and noting down this happy event, I will become slightly happier and not be moody during o2. Rahh.
If I wasnt wrong, it was last monday which kept me happy for some time. Mondays have never been enjoyable considering there's GP-gross accent and Econs-Boring to the max. But that monday was different! That call from suchen made me happy. okay maybe not the call but the trip to the canteen made me happy. HA. I really wondered what was so important that suchen had to call me and yet not tell me anything about it but just saying that its worth going late for my tutorial. I was in the toilet btw. Heart was pumping very fast partly due to the running but more due to the suspense. haha. Who would have thought that I would ever see ----- again? haha. YAY. FINALLY man. True enough, it was really worth it. (: 2 seconds is better than nothing, compared to the last time. Haha. Thinking about it makes me smile, especially the whole roller coaster ride of emotions that day. Haha. Believe me, noone could annoy me la! Too happy at that point of time. lalala. Thanks to those who shared my joy! (:
After that incident, school life is pretty much the same. Sorry to those whom I snapped at. I havent been in the best of moods lately. Perhaps being dao is my permanent traitmark alr. Anyway, one of my opponents last year told meiyi I am very fierce and something about my actions being very sleek esp when I attack. LOL. Talking about that, I just met up with meiyi again! ((:
We paired again, after a really really long time. Haha. I feel like asking someone to film us pairing! I think we're like too 'unique'! haha. noone seems to be able to adapt to our style of play, it seems almost impossible to find a person like her! I guess she's really irreplaceable la. We both agreed that we will join outside comps together. Haha. It took us one match to warm up, jiaolian said 'yi ju dou mei you ying ah? hai mei you warm up la!' haha. We both laughed at how lousy we are! haha. but things got better and we won the next 2 doubles. (: Its those times again! Its like I am forever living in the past! Come on! I just cant stop thinking about the past! Oh and we finally took a picture of our fav spot! Haha. Nellie's first reaction when she saw that was something like yvette and my crying spot! Dont we all love that spot? The music is making me sad la! =(
I met up with shuhuan yesterday! Haha. We conclude that we should meet up once every 3 months so we'll have more things to talk about. (I just went out with her the previous weekend) TRUE. We were at a loss at what to do beside eating. We ate ice cream in the end. I am forever eating ice cream with her. Haha. I have a sudden tendency to meet up old friends recently. Staying at home makes me go mad. I'll start thinking about all the sad things then I will sink into depression again. Haii.
Why do I have to lie to the people around me that I am normal? I hate it. I seriously hate it when people ask me about my facial expressions. eg Why look so sian? Why so dao? Lilin, dont be angry! Like enough of that please! I am so sick of finding excuses to tell the whole world that I am happy. Just leave me alone please, leave me to rot and die! I would greatly appreciate the peace. Do you know its very tiring to find excuses? Do you know that saying I-am-just-tired all the time makes me very irritated? I seriously run out of excuses alr! I am just me okay! My face is just like that! When I am troubled or thinking about certain things, my face will automatically look dao so just IGNORE can? I am tired of faking my happy mood.. very tired alr..
So far, I've felt tremors 2 times alr. It makes me very giddy. So scary. I still thought it was my sis who was irritating me by shaking the sofa until I saw the fan shaking left right too. LOL. What an experience. Anyone wants to cycle or blade with me? Haha. I need the sun!
black&white ; 3/06/2007 01:47:00 PM