shit. my A1 just flew away. stupid chi o's. sucks la. spent the past week reading chi.. can puke alrdy! i think i dreamt abt chinese too. =(
very random post. if i knew this would happen, i rather not talk to you again. why must this always happen? maybe i shouldnt be too nice to ____. ____! dont misunderstand! i wish i didnt know ____'s reaction. i wish i could stop yuting from asking ____. haii. now i will just have to stop talking to ____. what's wrong with me? cant we just be friends? maybe im thinking too much. sigh.
my arm hurts. ouch! im having stupid arthritis or wadeva it is.. i think i should see the doctor. but if i see, i'll waste money! so shld i see? i think i'll die of the pain.
see? i just knew it. our friendship is gone. i hope there wont be anymore misunderstandings. those that i pray for came true finally. is she for real? is she sincere?
went to geylang east library to take my cip records. let me tell u how screwed i am.last yr i lost my cip card. therefore all those times i spent in the lib doing cip with ye are gone! today went to check if they still have any records. just like what i expected, no more. i only have 30plus hrs. and 18 cca points. how am i suppose to minus points? i teared just now. all my effort and time while doing cip. argh. if i only i went to look for it earlier. now i have nthg. while looking thru the dsa application form, i realise how shibai i am. i have no more talent besides pingpong. and im oso not THAT gd. sigh. i regret not learning piano! i regret not studying in lower sec! haii. my list of achievements will be so bare. my sec sch life is boring. i have nthg to be proud of.
a change in colour to represent a happier mood! i went to destress last night. went shopping with my sis! i saw this really nice dress! but doubt i have the figure to look nice in it. haha. it costs 96!! ouch. must start saving money. haah. GSS, nthg much la. i saw acp at dorothy perkins yesterday! lol. i couldnt regconise her at first, coz she wasnt wearing specs. haha. but she looks much prettier now.(: char is so jealous. ahha. saw korwoong after that. i feel like eating subway, though it stinks. haha.
my birthday is coming! hurhur. like real. GOODBYE WORLD.
black&white ; 5/29/2006 05:35:00 PM
seoul garden treat, good good very good. bad bad very bad. took nice pictures, with great company.(:
cross-country was stupid! such a waste of my time. we all went there to walk la. coz cant have muscleache. ahha. at first i sprained my ankle. luckily mr tay saved me. he told me to keep running, if not my ankle will swing or sthg like that. thank goodness he was there! haha. and true enough, after some time, my ankle was better. me jess mch yuyang walked. haha. damn funny. jess sprained her ankle den sng ask me to piggy back her. haha. and ms jou, mr chan all think we very energetic, keep asking us to run but we dont want. haha. so in the end, we were sort of the last few la. damn funny. me n jess were laughing our way back. lol.
went out for lunch with wanling,yuting,zhenna and xiaozhabos. haha. we kept scaring ourselves with ghost stories in tp macs! super freaky. joanne asked me to accompany her to the same cubicle can! lol. so xiaozhabos went hme together while wanling zhengjia yingxin went for meeting and yuting nana went hme. we saw apple sitting on the bus. haha.
lianhezaobao comp was alright. no cedarians made it to top 4. not even the 3 pros. i met malingling on sun morning. i think i played quite well. coz i cld defend her attacks and attack a few balls. i love my service! haha. though i lost 1:2, im quite satisfied with my performance. atleast my famly wont think that i play table tennis for nthg.(: the score was 9:11, 17:15, 7:11. the last match was stupid. she was leading 7:1!! haha. not sure wad happen to me too. lol. anw, even if i win,i'll still meet liao ying which is another sure lose one. the rest played well too. just that some very unlucky. haha.
i love tabletennis even more now. haha. i just realised it when i was stoning yesterday. haha.yawns*
gtg mug for chinese. like real! bye.(:
black&white ; 5/22/2006 03:55:00 PM
Sci(p/c): NOT BAD! haha. my physics dropped abit but chem improved alot. see, the result of dropping bio! haha. quick! go drop! haha. now, dun have to study bio and pull down my sci. section A, chem was better. phy: 11/15, 22/35, 8/10. chem: 12/15, 19/35, 5/10. so overall 64 [B4]
Lit: IMPROVEMENT! 12N: all thanks to sng, i got 16/25,16/25.. not bad la. EL tchr: 15/25. unseen: 17/25!! ahha. i was disappointed for krishna one.. haii. i write so long la! but really din expect unseen to pullup my marks. haha. so overall 64[B4]
so irritated!! i have 4 subs short of 1 mark to the next grade! hmph. if only there was moderation.. haha. so my L1R5 is 23!! good right? so happy la. i improve by 5 points. yay. jiayou lilin! u can do it!(: despite disgusting comps, i can get this result is super gd.. hehe. i can strike off that wish alrdy.lalala.
10 years ago: i cant remb at all! haha. i started wearing specs alrdy?
5 years ago: i went beijing for an exchange program.
1 year ago: i was still taking biology.
5 snacks i enjoy: brownies, cookies, chocs, fruits and ice cream.
5 songs i know all the words to: bring me back to life, love me, cedar's sch song! haha. national anthem? and sha po lang.
5 places i wld run away to: papa's shop. east coast park, singapore post, sit on a bus and go ard sg, shuhuan's hse.
5 bad habits: showing my displeasure, crying, watching tv everyday etc.
5 ppl i tag to do this: wanling, zona, jess, sher. 4 enuff alrdy.
annaling! im done okay! (:
i love seoul garden with my teammates! will update abt it again.(: ciao.
lilin-
black&white ; 5/17/2006 07:11:00 PM
eng: BAD! my paper1 didnt do as well as i want it to be. i actually passed my compre and got 1 qn right for the vocab!! cheers- summary is damn lousy. so overall i think i got a 59 [C5], as expected. 18/30,19/30,14/25,14/25
chi: SURPRISINGLY GOOD! paper1 was quite alright. paper2 was miraculously well done! i got a1 for that! with oral and listening.. overall is 74 [A2]. 48.5/70, 52.5/70, 29/40, 18/20.
amaths: YUCK! haiya. like i've calculated that day, i really did fail my amaths! and exactly like what i thought, i had a borderline fail. the only D7 of the class. 38.5/80 [D7]!
emaths: OKAY.. im quite satisfied la. i didnt even study as hard as amaths but i got B4 so its very good alrdy. no tuition somemore..(: 36.5/50, 26/50. total: 62.5[B4]
SS/G: DISAPPOINTING! my SBQ as usual sucked, failed 12/25. den SEQ i actually passed eventhough i din study sustaining sg's devt!! i got 17/25! whee. its a miracle! thank god. ((: geog was disappointing. failed mapreading 4/10, did well for agri 13/15 but badly for tourism 16/25. overall: 62[B4] same as last year..=(
so currently, my L1R4 is 22. please let my lit and combined science do well! please? i dont mind getting 25!! if im not wrong, my sci will get a B4 or C5 then lit C5! haha. yeah.. i wish. im so not going to count my amaths! hmph. i just cant seem to not fail anything! and charmaine is such a maths genius! whee. she got highest in class for both maths! ((:
im so tired.
ms chng doesnt allow us to skip x-ctry! eeyer. i hate x-ctry. sure muscle ache!! but last year was different, coz i saw her! ((: gtg. byee.
lilin-
black&white ; 5/15/2006 04:25:00 PM
no trainings, no homework but lots of housework! =( must fold the clothes, wash my plates. haii.
i spent most of yesterday and today watching vcds!! one of my fav hobby. i watched memoirs of a geisha, pride and prejudice, exorcism of emily rose and under the tuscan sun.. liked the first 3! damn interesting. but i dint unerstand most of the geisha one due to their accents. pride and prejudice is nice! i love mr darcy. so cool lar! the third isnt very scary. very ineresting i thought though got scared a few times at the beginning.
school's starting on. mon! sobb sobb- that means must study for o-level chinese, prepare for lian he zao bao match and most impt of all, getting back of papers! now i have mixed feelings. im excited and at the same time, scared. haha. i hope i can cancel of that one from the wishlist. please? hmm.
im craving for brownies..my birthday is coming! yay. 2 months and 1 day! in 3 mins time, it will be my fav show's last episode! no... so sad! alright. im off. will tell u my results on mon1(:
poof.i hate my hair!
black&white ; 5/13/2006 08:48:00 PM
yest, went to watch MI3 with zona! haha. in the end they all pangseh-ed us. hmph! but nvm, that movie is good! go watch okay! damn cool. i want to watch horror movie. frighten me to make me wake up!
me,meiyi and leeza went vjc for some trial thingy! ohmy. my skills deproved like crazy! my forehand!! ah!! meiyi was worst, her backhand and forehand both oso cannot. the result of not training for 3 weeks. haha. ohno, next sat is my lianhezaobao competition alrdy!! how how how? yucks la, i hate playing singles, singles need good stamina and do i look like i have stamina?NO. im meeting some person called khor yuan shan i think. cant remb who she is though her name seems to ring a bell. but im pretty sure she's not that yuan shan..(: she sounds pro so i dunno whether i'll be entering the next round. and the next person i'll meet is like ma lingling. lol.good luck man. the problem of joining under19, we're the youngest. rahh.
anw, at vj, i was quite excited at first.. den disappointed den back to normal alrdy. i must treasure cedar's facilities man. we have more tables, more balls, more trgs, and DONIC tables! haii. i realise she's quite nice la. how can i pass judgement so quickly? tsktsk. good, i've forgiven and forgotten. YAY. linjiaolian's coaching is so different. for 1 sec, i really missed cedar's trng. i could imagine how much i'll miss everything there. JC is so different, pls let the year past slowly! i feel so immature and so stupid. suchen is right, for someone who's not in trip science, its difficult to fit in. even janica failed her test. ohno.
should i still go there? will i be able to cope? can i make it? there are millions of qns in my mind..
today, went cycling with huiyun AGAIN! ahha. i tell u, i love EAst coast.. whee. i warn everybody!! NEVER CYCLE BETWEEN 11AM TO 2PM! result: tanlines that are gross and sunburnt skin! haha. yeah.. my thighs and my arms are so red and dark la! and i have the t-shirt and shorts tanline. even the slippers mark! lol. we cycled till the end. east coast doesnt lead to pasir ris! im so wrong! me n char turned back at the correct place! its indeed a dead end. after that will be roads for cars. we saw one aeroplane today!(: my butt hurts as usual.. plus the muscle aches from yest's trng at vj. haha. we ate the famous duck rice and sugar cane juice! haha. and our bikes were not stolen eventho it wasnt lock! so lucky la..
one day..i will be able to blade like them..trust me man. i can.
last night's yumcha restaurant's food was horrible! so ex summore. i only like the deermeat and the dessert! i lke almond jelly. =) i cant wait to get back my papers.. haha. so random. i like the feeling. alright. i shall go sleep. so tired! im fit for this week! i exercised 3 times alrdy!((:
black&white ; 5/11/2006 04:39:00 PM
i din study lit! felt so guilty. and just as expected, i din noe how to do the theme of madness! hah. its playtime for me! things to do:
1)reply ena's email
2)reply rongqi's letter
3)reply jess's letter
4)reply laotu's letter
5)borrow vcds
6)go cycling again!
7)watch xianjianqixiazhuan! my fav show!
看不见未来和过去
分不清生死的差异
不带走喜悦或遗憾 离开这里
破晓和月牙在交替
我穿越过几个世纪 只为你
樱花瓣在飘零 这悲凉的风景
长袖挥不去一生刀光剑影
生 是为了证明
爱 存在的痕迹
火 燃烧后更伟大的生命
杀 是为了歌颂 破灭前的壮丽
夜 是狼深邃眼睛
孤独等待黎明
i love this song so much!! ohmy.one day must listen at least once before i sleep! ahah. opening song for that show. i love it! why my fav guy die alrdy?! sobbs* i realise i like guys with sleepy eyes! haha. the superband one oso. lol. sloppy looking then nice wad! =D i hope my tangyuxiaobao doesnt die in the end. this sat is the final episode! so sad. and i like da chang jin too! damn touching! i like anything that makes me cry!
'i'll love him till the sun dies, the moon becomes triangle, the stars taste like strawberry ice blended!'
ahha! what a cute pai of gays.(: so loving.
todays cycling with char is good! exercise is good! we saw 6 aeroplanes, 10 ppl, 1 jetty! we wanted to cycle to pasir ris! too ambitious like malvolio! haha.oops. we stopped near changi airport den turned back! so tired and thirsty! but gd! i grow darker! heee. thurs going with huiyun again! shes damn fast! i remb that time i use her bro's bike, so high i think i knocked a tree! haha.
i miss those memories we had together! no! today i din fall! what an accomplishment. guess its bcoz its a weekday. ms begam wanted to come with us! haha. i like east coast park! nice memories that will be saved and locked in my brain!(:
aiya. i want to try rollerblading again. i dun care! sumone teach me in june! i'll be a nice student n not complain. haha.
i've decided to be nice to them. to forgive and forget. him included. im a changed girl!(:
bye! no more tears! unless for tv dramas n songs. and annoyin stuff. 2 mins the most. (:
i have a date tmr with them. no trng = my fats! =(
black&white ; 5/09/2006 06:13:00 PM
hello people. its going to be a long entry. so dont bother to read. yup. im in deep trouble. as in DEEP DEEP DEEP trouble.
so the day starts off like that. first, i forgot to bring my jacket which means that i hafta go borrow n run ard the sch. and oso means that i dun have time to read my vectors. hmph. and my legs were damn sore, i think its like diana's and beatrice's arthritis kind. last night was damn painful i couldn't sleep. and just as we thought, it rained today. meiyi made a lame comment. 'see, its raining. the sky is crying for u so u shld stop crying..' haii.
i was initially pleased with my performance today.1) i dint study much and it was do-able. 2) i manage to finish locus and transformation. oh if i din use pen to write the trasformation answers, will it still be marked? ohno. 3) after emaths paper is over = left lit paper only!((:
and so im happy. until... ... ...
i was still telling mr sng that im a good girl, and i will only use my phone in the foyer. at that time we were near hod room. and he said 'doesn't matter! im a teacher. i give u permission.' and he complained that my phone is old. grr. old den ppl wont steal wad! okay thats not the point. skip skip..
when me n meiyi were deciding where to sit, i purposely chose that seat. i guess its all predestined. lol. and at that moment i just wanted to play with my phone, and he just happen to walk past and it was too late for me to react due to the place i was sitting. tada! im dead. everything just happened so quickly. im not even the only one using hp in sch. to those lucky ones, u shld thank god u're not in my situation. so he kicked my chair and i knew it was game over for me. but one thing good was that he didn't confiscate it. and luckily im alrdy out of cgtt, if not.. i guess im considered lucky. bu xing zhong zhi da xing i guess.
after that, i was very sad la. and i've never gotten into trouble for quite long and obviously i was scared. i wanted him to scold so that i would feel better. but just walking off will be torturing me! its like all those emotional turmoil and stuff. and before i knew it, i told ms chng and started crying realli bad. i thought i was gonna hyper-ventilate or have an asthma attack. i was THAT emotional. ah.. the more i try to control and stop myself from crying, the worse it gets. OUCH! im asking for trouble. to think that i minutes ago, i was telling sng how guai i was and tada! so me ahma n meiyi decided to leave the scene, lest risking myself meeting him again.
we were walking walking den i was like shit. its mrs noeline lee. she's a school councillor, what can u hide man. so i told her the story again. and at the backgrd i saw suresh. haah. okay i was breaking down la. i haven even calm down and i have to go through it again. thats not the end. kpo ms poon came to ask what happened too! shes damn comical la! by then, i could hardly breathe so i ask meiyi to tell her. it took me quite long to catch my breath again. my heart was beating so fast, i was coughing, i was on the verge of having an asthma attack. yes, it was THAT serious. finally, peace. so i held my breath, for fear of hyper-ventilating and it did helped. i calmed down. (: phew. waited for char they all for their bio paper to end. i felt so comforted when i saw her. coz she would understand. at least there were witnesses.
meiyi had a stupid idea. she said 'i heard that if a teacher is complained twice, he will be kicked out of cedar. last year 4P complained right, so u can go complain and he'll be gone!' meiyi and her naive mind. yeah..i wish. but i wouldn't want to be the one complaining. it just complicates matter. my legs hurt again. i've joined beatrice and diana in the weather forecast club. ahha.
im feeling so much better now. at least im not crying that badly. at least im thinking about it from another angle. it makes u feel better. thanks mrs lee! i respect her alot. just lyk ms chng. aiya, i am sexist la. haha. just admit it. i like old women. haha.
moral of story: never try to stop crying coz it'll become worse. lilin, blame it on urself. u're stupid la! [i have split personality! lol] n some times, things are just so unfortunate. i think my ba zi and his bu he. haha. pls let the year end quickly. i want mengpotang! to forget about all the friction i had with him in my whole cedar life! lilin! must study hard! ignore him, he's not impt! (:
anw, to all those nice people who offered me tissue, listen to my troubles, bear with my tears and whining, THANK YOU SO MUCH! LOVE YOU!(:
black&white ; 5/05/2006 03:49:00 PM
hello! im in a happier mood. tmr's like chem,phy and geog paper! im so dead. studied combined alrdy. so left geog. pls pray i do as well as last yr coz my SS sucked. good governance didnt come out! hmph. lkc bluff me! but its my fault la. haha. lazy to study. how bout i studied this morn 4 am, abt 6 hrs before the paper. haha. pro huh? pics! i love cgtt!(: i know im not supposed to be here. hehe.
black&white ; 5/03/2006 03:55:00 PM