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hello. a really quick one.me n meiyi played against nygh yest. it was so bloody close but we played realli well. like that was the best game so far la. YAY. means we'll be more prepared today! (: got serious muscle aches. ahah. the thing is, both of us are so prepared for hz's doubles when it became may n evelyn we were so shocked! ahha. they actualli put their 1st n 2nd singles together against us!!?! like ppl sure think we'll get thrashed or sthg. but in our minds we thought, if cchsm can beat RI, why cant we beat them? right? so we chionged. haha. and that stupid umpire scolded me! lyk wth. i dint even do anythg wrong can. i just cldnt see properly cos of the sun wad. urgh. n i told him very politely i remb n gues wad? he just vent his anger on me n said it wasnt his duty to close the door! siao. so i was lyk 'i am only telling u. why r u so fierce?' n i rolled my eyes. lol. but it did not affect me yet coz i won that match. n wheni saw jiaolian i just broke down while complaining abt that idiot. lol. very stupid of me come to think of that. anw, i complained abt him to the in-charge, hes DEAD! HA. okay back to the point. after fighting realli hard, we still lost 2:3. sigh. our trophy is sliping off.ohno. but yuyang played well too. haha. (: press on everyone! we can do it!(:
black&white ; 3/30/2006 05:54:00 AM
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message from that someone whom i havent seen for 18days..these are just parts of it.'dont dwell so much on your shortcomings for now,and focus on your strengths. i've been playing sports too and i know mental strength is most crucial. you cannot concede mentally when the tournie hasn't even started. come on, you can do it, and you will do your best, for yourself, for your school, for your friends and all who are supporting you.' from my dearest erjit.isn't it touching? hmm. i dunno what im feeling right now but it doesnt really matter.VJC wants leeza,meiyi and me to use DSA. isn't that a dream come true? visualising-
black&white ; 3/16/2006 04:52:00 PM
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i've forgotten how to blog.i've forgotten how to type.tears, anger, desperation, frustration overwhelming in me for every training.skills deproving, bad attitude, lousy mentality..im sad. but if i compare myself to others, mine is nothing.im just NOT happy. service no improvement, making stupid mistakes during comp, losing my temper, quarelling with meiyi, cant seem to hit any ball. i've tried to stay calm, i've tried to hold back my tears but it just cant seem to work. 6 days and the war will begin. just 6 days to prepare, to train, my last war representing cedar. all my efforts, sweat and tears, will they help me achieve my goal? it seems as though the trophy is never going to reach my hand..not even the bronze. it seems as though no matter how hard i try, i cant reach it. even now as tears roll down my face, im still lost, desperate and frustrated.the coach knows im very sad. i myself know that im very sad. 6 days to go and im not improving. my skills remains stagnant, my confidence decreases day by day. just what should i do? tues, thurs, fri and sat. 4 days of training but i cant do it. my physical body is there but my mind is not there. all the enthusiasm and confidence seems to fly away. where has the usual love for the sport go to? no more love, no more likes, but dislikes and hatred. it is a chore. i cant do this, i cant do that anymore. everyone else is improving but not me. 6 days is not enough. and my studies is horrible. please help me. why does my heart cryfeelings i cant fight
black&white ; 3/15/2006 11:59:00 AM
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hello. once again, i went oversaes wif the school. this time its KL not malacca.hah. overall it was not bad. got to know new friends as usual. i lyk my tour guide auntie margaret, she was my first tour guide! haha. yay. 4P pple r very nice. there was chief, jolene, cheryl yeo, jaslyn, amanda, keet yeng, verena, shijun etc etc. very nice ppl. i was in the same room as novabelle n huiyun. ours was the nearest to the lift, room 2315. so nice. every morning, the sun will shine in and our room looks as if there was a treasure box inside. ahah. cool. i love the fireflies! they're so pretty n small! totally different from what i imagined. monkeys! i manage to take them mating!! haha. i quite lyk the food. me n amanda taught jaslyn how to peel a prawn n she had her first prawn peeled! so honoured! haha. cheryl wanted to help jaslyn 'knock' the crab n poof it bounce off my hand n onto the floor. haha. i lyk bus rides. with lame jokes from chief, cynthia n friend from 4Z. haha. nice bus neighbours. racist jokes is bad..haha. dai-dee. sleeping. shopping was bad on the first day. i shall not talk abt it. its scary..but i bought 2 tops socks n shoes in the end. faizah, huiyun n i bought the same pair of brown shoes. jaslyn bought the pink one n cynthia bought a dark brown one. it was fun bargaining! haha.2nd day, my table 2 ppl got scolded by mrs lim coz they were late. poor 4p n belle. but they were forgiven in the end. thefts thefts n more thefts. wallets n phones. haii.shall upload the photos next time.bye. I UPDATED! yay.
black&white ; 3/14/2006 08:32:00 PM
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hello. a very fast entry since wanling ask for it. i dun lyk trng anymore. i get very moody n sad n stuff. surprisingly, i prefer class. haha. i hope my skills will improve. nowadays, i get so frustrated i feel lyk crying.. nono. actually, tears have alrdy fallen. haii.KL trip tmr. pray hard huiyun dun abandon me n decided not to go. i'll be uber lonely. OAc'06: hmm. the sec 3s lyk chief. i just knew it. shes SO cute!! :D haha. i dun lyk white rubberband anymore. lalala.okay. thats all for this term! nationals r here! esp T2W2!! can die! all 5 days have comps/trng!! =( ciao!
black&white ; 3/10/2006 09:01:00 PM
