20080121
R papers results are finally out. EESS.
Chem H1: 40(S)
Econs H2: 43(S)
Maths H2: 47(E)
Geog H2: 52(E)
Geog was a huge surprise! I mean I actually thought I would fail by a little. Geog never fails to surprise me! You are worth all the hard work! (: Anyway, I still have not gotten back my geog paper. Geog department!!! So I am officially promoted and my decision is finalised, I wont be requesting to retain though my results still cmi. Haha.
I am sick, since God knows when! The last time I went to the doctor's was maybe last aug when I found out I had asthma. I think there were a few minor cases here and there but I got better after some rest.
Anyway, due to the funny 'kinokuniya' fever, named by char, I was forced to go home at 830 this morning. I had a slight fever when I woke up and was contemplating whether I should go for lessons. Being the new me, I didnt want to miss lectures though I have 5 breaks, I thought maybe after I bathe I'll feel better! This is a safety precaution in case I happen to have that fever which I am still unable to remember its proper name.
If I didnt go to school, I could have slept longer! Hahah. Guess what! My doctor is actually our fav tyh's mutual friend back in vj! They were from the same batch and he is from 86S--! HAHHA. 86?! He was one of the first few batches of victorians I guess. I was utterly amused by what my doctor said! The school system didnt seem to change much. My doctor was from softball and sportsmen were excused from PE back then too! Apparently, tyh was VERY VERY VERY ON during his jc and army days, one of the fittest ppl around, having soccer, cross and track as his CCAS. Lol. 21 years later, one is a PE HOD, the other a GP. Not bad la. HAHAHA.
Teachers are quite interesting, really! Like how Ms Lee can be a clubbing queen and her funniest way of getting to know a person's name and number! Ohmy, she is my sister's junior! Maybe I can check out they yearbook to see how she looks like last time! Lol.
The art of delayed satisfaction.
black&white ; 1/21/2008 06:53:00 PM
20080114
Whats (a-x)(b-x)(c-x)...(z-x)? The answer is so stupid you will want to knock your head.What does your birth date mean? You are a perfect manager, you can get others to work for you and do great in teams. You make people happy! You're dynamic, smart, and humorous and people like it when you are around. But it might be a bit foolish to expect you to stay around for long. Very different indeed.Lesson learnt: The more you expect, the more disappointed you'll be.The best punishment for me is to feel all other emotions except happiness.
black&white ; 1/14/2008 09:21:00 PM
20080112
Trials made me rather happy! Hahah. Of course there were certain events that weren't very smooth but its okay. Omg I actually had ppl who asked me how to hold a bat! *faints* Half the time I was trying to recall how lao jiao lian held his trials a few years back. People will queue up then they each have 3/5 balls which they will try to serve, helplessly. Then they will TRY to catch his weird balls all over the table. HAHA. It pleases me whenever I meet a person who can dui gong with me and it pleases me even more when I see lefthanders! LOL. And yay I saw cutie also. Omg still as cute as ever. Lalala.Sian, tutorials are piling and I want to watch so many dramas. I should just take my time..- Gp essay
- Econs international trade tutorial
- Maths tutorial 9.4 and 12.2
- Read geog notes (I should start this habit and not wait till 1 day before exams)
Oh I kind of miss chinese lessons. I should stop wasting my time here and go back to Maclaurin's series, atmosphere, Arenes, gentrification and renewal, volume, international trade and intro to macro. I like my timetable alot but I dislike the workload. =(
Changes to be made:
- Attend all lectures unless there is a valid reason to be absent
- Pay full attention and try not to doze off
- Clear your doubts on that day before it piles up and turns into a mountain
- Attempt all tutorials and seek help if there is a need to
- Read all notes available after every lecture ASAP
- Manage time well so there'll be a balance in everything
- Stay focus during lessons and training
I am broke. =(
black&white ; 1/12/2008 01:34:00 PM
20080108
It's much much much harder than I thought. I've succeeded in something yet failed in another. Internal struggles... I want that guy in Heroes to erase certain memories. I want the witch in Stardust to cast a spell on me so that I can neither hear nor see you. Seeing you reminds me of your brother. Its true when they say the first is the hardest to forget. 1,2,3 and 4. 1=fortyeight. 2=one. 3=six. 4=eight+1=sigh. 2=lawl. 3=fate. 4=wols. 1.5= smile.5=?HOW NOW BROWN COW? Pray pray pray. I saw 11:11 during maths lecture today!
black&white ; 1/08/2008 07:22:00 PM
Post R papers were quite alright. I wanted to watch drama and go online to slack but I ended up feeling sad talking to best bud, ED-win and kavin. Ohmy all guys. Its really rare to find a girl who can understand how I feel. Day 1: woke up late and went to use comp to slack. I wanted to write phy's letter but Im such a bad friend I keep pushing it back. Bad start of the day, felt really pissed over something and my schedule was upside down. How do people prepare in 20mins. Just bathing, I would have exceeded the 20mins! There are just too many things to do after Re's.Can I have a break pleaseeeee? Holidays wasnt enjoyable and now J2 has started. Shoot. went to jon's birthday party with chuah. We were late plus it was raining.=( time seems to pass very fast then. we didnt do much, didnt play mahjong, didnt play cards, didnt bbq, just sat and talk abit and watching people go mad.. So near yet so far.Off we go to syiyar's og dinner. turnout was pathetic but I didnt care, just wanted to have fun. Thank you changling and chuah for that wonderful day! I really felt better! (: Chuah and her mcbilly! LOL. Dinner was I-cant-finish-cos-my-appetite-isn't-back-yet. Sigh. Mass dance at suntec was not all about mass dance. Company was more important. We were drenched, soaked totally and the umbrella jon lend me was used to shelter our bags instead. Anyway, I felt nostalgic and even more so when Lorena appeared. The same event last year, we were at the other side of the fountain, stretching out our hands for people in the 'train' to hit. Remembered how crazy I was when - was in the 'train'. Im such a retard. Now one year later, we're still standing there, soaked but with different company. I hope the photographer didnt take pic of us and even if he did, noone would regconise us. Anyway I've forgotten most of the dance steps. I had fun catching umbrellas and being high. The best part was gathering the cedarians and cheering together. That I really enjoy and miss. Felt damn good cheering Cedar Solid and Cedar revolution. Loved doing billy banja and annoyed when VS cheered right beside us. Haha. We're so childish but I like. Cheered till I had sore throat and throughtout the event, I was brrr..COLD. Cheers to my strong immunity for not falling sick the next day but only a slight headache yesterday! Cedar is <3.>
Bought supper for my sis at bedok hawker after mass dance at suntec. The uncle laughed at me.
Me: Uncle, hai you bai ji ma? (uncle, still have 'white' chicken?'
uncle: you! ni kan hai you zhe me duo! (Have! Look, there's still so much left!) *points to the chicken.
uncle: chi de bao de? yi ge hai shi liang ge? (having here or takeaway? One or two?
me: YI GE BAO.. de.
Uncle: *stare at me and suppressing his laugh for a few seconds before preparing*
me: *know sthg wrong with my reply but ignored*
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Uncle: Na.. ni de YI GE BAO. *laughs loudly* (here's your packet one serving?)
Me: *laughs and feeling embarrassed* orh. YI BAO YI BAO! (okay, it's one packet one packet!)
me: ... Cha shaobao... ( Char siew bun)
uncle: *laughs loudly till his next customer ordered his food*
Felt damn stupid and wanted to laugh at myself on my way home but I'll look like an idiot laughing to myself. Managed to suppress it till I reach home and told my sisters.
Played The Sims 2 Deluxe for the last time. It belongs to my sis' bf. =( I created new sims but couldn't play much. Played sims till 2am then slept.
Day 2: stone a while, played sims again. I want to continue playing! Had to go out with my eldest sis to buy winter wear. Bye sims! =( Tired tired tired. Never do tutorials again! Watch abit of coffee prince while filing my stuff. 2nd sis back to hostel.
Day 3: No geog and Mrs Mah cancelled chem knowing that noone will turn up! :D
Yay! Crashed chuah's og with changling again. Sea regatta! Fun fun fun! Happy that Im darker and not pale and sickly like a bai zhan ji. I manage to leave east coast DRY. (: All thanks to my wonderful period. Actually I can get wet la cos its my last day but I didnt bring change of clothes! Flag-stealing station gave me a 10cm long scar plus many other small ones at my right thigh. Thanks ah, whoever! Besides that and watching people getting wet since dunking wasnt allowed by order of tyh, it was just enjoying the sea breeze and tanning. (:
Went back school in between. Haha. Ate breakfast and slacked around before going back. That Ivanho guy is damn pro! omg. matrix like what changling said! Off to parkway for sushi!:D Sushi=happy LL. We forgot that buffet starts only at 3. Settled some stuff and off I go to bed. Headache plus a funny collar tanline. Read prooability! Ohmy not easy ah!
Day 4: Felt tired and slept till this morning at 6.50am! Omg! More than 1hr after my usual waking up time. If my sis didnt sleep-talk, thats it man. I'll wake up when my sis alarm for work rings. Chiong like siao. Didn't pack my bag and everything was in a mess. Bad start. Reached school hall at 7.39am! HOHO. I ran like siao and pa sped a little. If not for bus 40 at the single-lane siglap, I would have reached earlier. Anyhow, I wasnt late, just panting like crazy after I ran into the hall. Quite exciting leh. I've never been late in Cedar and VJ. I think today is the latest and closest I've been to being late!
No geog again. I spend my time with the councillor and ended up crying AGAIN. Noone, I repeat noone has ever described so well how Im feeling. Whatever she said was totally how I felt and somehow the struggle to stop my tears from falling failed. Those stories touched me deeply.
First day of proper school was fine. I think I like Tuesdays, with my yam pau. (: J2's timetable is really good!
black&white ; 1/08/2008 06:30:00 PM
First post for the year. I never have the habit of coming up with new year resolutions so I'll just skip that. Its the last thing on my mind.
R papers:
Maths was okay. I could do some and I think I can pass since its so similar to promos. Big thankyou to kuanren, yuqin and the twins for helping me in maths! Really very sorry for all the time you all have wasted.
Chem was B-A-D, bad! I felt really miserable during and after the paper. Deep down I know how much effort I've put in and Im quite sure the results wont do justice to all my hardwork for the past 2 months. Cant believe I used up 1/2 my holidays and realise I cant pass a bloody H1 chem. I feel like tearing my heart up. I feel so horrible I just want to rip my heart apart so that I dont have to feel the pain. I feel bad because Mrs Mah really helped alot. The many mornings she spent with me teaching me chem till she puked blood and the many other stuff we talked about. We're almost like friends alr. I feel guilty for not able to do well. Such guilt was felt towards Mr Ang for my maths promos too. When will I perform and make my teachers proud? When will I ever be up to the standard?
Econs was after CCA walk-about. After chem, really felt damn shitty. I think I almost cried while revising with Ms Lee. It was like stress alert! I didn't study for econs. So if I passed, it must be luck. Thank you to Ms Lee for going through CS during the holidays. Im such a troublesome student. Econs paper was done in a I-feel-like-fainting-and-sleeping state. Im angered by people who dont treat R papers seriously.. ARGH-
2nd day of R papers totally drained me out. I was really tired. Its not like the tiredness after training but really tired from deep within. Just feel like shutting down and hide in my cancer shell. I cried my night away that night. Having my period didnt help at all. You cry because you know you won't do well. You cry because you're guilty for not studying well. You cry because you're stressed up. You cry because you feel lonely. You cry because you feel helpless. You cry because you wish to end your life.
I felt really sick and tired cos my body clock was screwed up and I had a serious lack of sleep. I was feeling down and having such a bad time I just told my dad im not going school the next day eventhough I've been looking forward to JMS since Nov. He didnt ask why and just offered to fetch me to school eventhough it was during lunch time at 1pm. Im such a pampered kid.
I was having such a bad day, I didnt have the energy to entertain people, I just want to sleep my life away. So I woke up for my Geog paper and felt damn weird in school.
Geog was strange as well. Im pissed with myself for not studying rocks properly. That piece of foolscap I purposelt leave out till the end but forgot to read was tested. I feel like strangling myself. I flipped the qn paper, saw the diagram and I was like 'Fuck!', mass movement came out again. Whatever I didnt study came out. Well done, LL! Essays were like ??? I think my part b answers were shorter than part a and why do all the answers sound the same?!
Voila! That marks the end of my R papers. After geog was immediately go parkway to settle presents. Spending all my pocket money make me feel SLIGHTLY better. Papers were done in pain-gastric. I screwed up my eating system and got myself gastric plus poor appetite. Cramps+urgent+hungry= BAD RESULTS.
I conclude that R papers are the most tiring thing on earth. It sucks my life and energy away. Its back to the flipping thing. After attending all the r papers, I know who are the usual people. lawl.
Goodbye my tears, could you dissappear and not appear everyday?
black&white ; 1/08/2008 05:53:00 PM
