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hello. i take abt an hour to blog but u take less than 5 mins to read. haha.
yes. today is aholiday.. but i have to plan properly.
1) study bio
2) do yingyongwen
3) do zhuoye
4) do amaths ass 9.5
5) do chem ws
6) prepare bio file for checking
haiya.alot of things to do.. i have amaths test on fri. i tink everyone will pass but i'll fail. coz even if its suresh, i still dunno. n he dun check my work!! :( the stupid sketching of functions la. wad absolute thing.grr. n i bet i'll juz fail my bio test tml. im sure it'll be damn difficult. coz i nvr pay attention beginning of the term..den the transport in plants i nvr listen so alot i dunno. n i cannot memorise one. so many tests suddenly. n i tink i slack so much for this nd holis la. so wasted. i was juz told by suchen that sec 4 prelims starting in 3 wks time. so fast! quite scared for them.. good luck!
i tink yest nite is fun.. frm my hse, i cld hear the tampines fireworks but cannot see. but i cld see veh clearly the padang n marina bay ones. so nice la. i oso saw many planes flying ard causing much disturbance coz frm yishun to tamp, vice versa. but i love fireworks. so pretty. there was this star in a circle.so cute. 2 yrs ago i din get to perform..now i realli regret it..coz its a once in a lifetime thing..but i will nvr have that experience again. so to the rest of the sch, gd for u that u participated in the ndp '03.=]
sumtimes i wonder.. can i stop doing stupid things n make a fool of myself? veh irritating.. i regret this regret that.haii. if i juz thot of the consequences, i wld change my mind n hist will change too. i made a big mistake in p6 that can nvr be erased. n i bet not anyone has done that b4. i broke the law, i wasnt send to the girls home but the counsilling was not any better. how sad rite.. i dun even noe whether i hav a bad record or wad.. or was it juz a warning. juz think back, how stupid n foolish u were. how dissappointed everyone will be.. so dun do stupid things. this is juz the more serious ones. 3 yrs past, ive changed.. i hated anyone hu made the same mistake. ive learned to be better, ive learnt to think for others but wad abt the rest? stop being selfish..right now when im writing i regret n start crying. but nthg can change hist. nthg.. its juz lyk my temper, ive been so irritating, having attitude problem, loner i muz say.. but if i juz smile more n not show my emotions so much many happier things will happen. if i cld juz control my emotions whether sad,angry or happy so many things will change n so many things will be affected.
so dun do stupid things. think of others n live life being happy..'happy or sad also must continue living, so why not live happily, smile more?' qouted frm my mortal. so wad muz i change now? try not to be so dao, even if u're sad, dun show it? u're angry oso muz bear wif it. happy oso cannot be too mad. my normal face shows that im pissed wad. wad u expect me to do? when im tired i dun talk so dun say im fierce.coz i can be nice. i tink there r lyk so many things to learn in life, im tired.. i feel lyk taking a break. its like, studies doesnt mean anything. if u cant study means u'll be lousy. wad kind of lesson r they trying to teach? so stressful. i dun lyk to study but i studyu for the sake of a better life next time.. maybe a better job n have a better income..so maybe i'll live my adult life happier.but realli studies shldnt mean everything. for those hu cant study r they going to suffer? no. there r more things in life..its juz lyk in sch, once ur studies is gd, ur cedar life is smooth. u can hav many leadership positions. u have many chances of excelling. prefect, psl, instructor, cca leader, monitress. u dun hav to be smart to be a leader wad. so long as u can cope, u can be anything rite? n for those hu dun have to worry for anything, dun take things for granted for u nvr noe wah happens next in life..
i have talked enough n i tink i shld stop..'farewell..fair cruelty' 12N.
black&white ; 8/10/2005 10:14:00 AM
