20050814
stressed!
i announced to the whole world that imn stressed n sad!! u wanna noe y???? coz i suck in studies, cca plus sum other frenship stuff. damn sad.. its juz all of a sudden i felt lyk crying, all of a sudden im okay den start to cry again. can u pls control urself? yuck. i hate to cry on sat trgs!! n i nvr fail to do that. y get so emotional? i did alot alot of emaths. i beta pass. i hope i noe how to do the vol n area thing plus tricky trigo. i hav to work hard now. so if u see me dao n irritated i apologise coz im not playing alrdy.gotta buck up n study. u can say im preparing for EYE now. yes. doing all sorts of qns..try to relearn those things i dunno. dislike myself for not paying attention in class partly bcoz of the hot n stuffy environment but i dun hav a choice.
my studies deprove alot. skills oso, zhen shou cannot hit anymore. veh sad. thruout yest, i knew i was going to cry but i juz bear wif it for as long as i can until i realli cant take it anymore n i squatted, cried in btwn a match. u noe u hav to juggle so many things at one time. all the troubles all together, exam, comp blah blah blah.juz sick n tired. realli. i suppose this is the time when one feels lyk ending their lifes but i WONT. i juz need sumone to talk to me.. listen to all my troubles or anything i feel unhappy abt..or probably lending me a shoulder to cry on.is that too much? i tink im very fan.. thats y pple dun lyk me.
ive decided n thot thru, decided not to play anymore..time to be serious. noone talk to me in class, juz stare out of my window daydreaming..hoping for a miracle to happen. this term i only pass chi n phy la. n they r lyk borderline passes. failed chem,geog,amaths..haii.definitely bio too. im dead.. y is everyone improving n im not? i dun want to disappont my parents. hao bu rong yi cheng dao xian zai, wo bu ke yi jiu zhe yang fang qi le.
thx to many many ple hu showed their concerns, listen to my rantings, my silly story..thx.=] meiyi,char,seniors,friends..
im currently not in a veh good mood. so i will juz break down suddenly..can be very unpredictable..dun make me sad coz i dowan to cry.tell me happy things n cheer me up coz i cant make myself happy on my own..
black&white ; 8/14/2005 06:16:00 PM
