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hello people. its going to be a long entry. so dont bother to read. yup. im in deep trouble. as in DEEP DEEP DEEP trouble.so the day starts off like that. first, i forgot to bring my jacket which means that i hafta go borrow n run ard the sch. and oso means that i dun have time to read my vectors. hmph. and my legs were damn sore, i think its like diana's and beatrice's arthritis kind. last night was damn painful i couldn't sleep. and just as we thought, it rained today. meiyi made a lame comment. 'see, its raining. the sky is crying for u so u shld stop crying..' haii.i was initially pleased with my performance today.1) i dint study much and it was do-able. 2) i manage to finish locus and transformation. oh if i din use pen to write the trasformation answers, will it still be marked? ohno. 3) after emaths paper is over = left lit paper only!((: and so im happy. until... ... ...i was still telling mr sng that im a good girl, and i will only use my phone in the foyer. at that time we were near hod room. and he said 'doesn't matter! im a teacher. i give u permission.' and he complained that my phone is old. grr. old den ppl wont steal wad! okay thats not the point. skip skip..when me n meiyi were deciding where to sit, i purposely chose that seat. i guess its all predestined. lol. and at that moment i just wanted to play with my phone, and he just happen to walk past and it was too late for me to react due to the place i was sitting. tada! im dead. everything just happened so quickly. im not even the only one using hp in sch. to those lucky ones, u shld thank god u're not in my situation. so he kicked my chair and i knew it was game over for me. but one thing good was that he didn't confiscate it. and luckily im alrdy out of cgtt, if not.. i guess im considered lucky. bu xing zhong zhi da xing i guess.after that, i was very sad la. and i've never gotten into trouble for quite long and obviously i was scared. i wanted him to scold so that i would feel better. but just walking off will be torturing me! its like all those emotional turmoil and stuff. and before i knew it, i told ms chng and started crying realli bad. i thought i was gonna hyper-ventilate or have an asthma attack. i was THAT emotional. ah.. the more i try to control and stop myself from crying, the worse it gets. OUCH! im asking for trouble. to think that i minutes ago, i was telling sng how guai i was and tada! so me ahma n meiyi decided to leave the scene, lest risking myself meeting him again. we were walking walking den i was like shit. its mrs noeline lee. she's a school councillor, what can u hide man. so i told her the story again. and at the backgrd i saw suresh. haah. okay i was breaking down la. i haven even calm down and i have to go through it again. thats not the end. kpo ms poon came to ask what happened too! shes damn comical la! by then, i could hardly breathe so i ask meiyi to tell her. it took me quite long to catch my breath again. my heart was beating so fast, i was coughing, i was on the verge of having an asthma attack. yes, it was THAT serious. finally, peace. so i held my breath, for fear of hyper-ventilating and it did helped. i calmed down. (: phew. waited for char they all for their bio paper to end. i felt so comforted when i saw her. coz she would understand. at least there were witnesses. meiyi had a stupid idea. she said 'i heard that if a teacher is complained twice, he will be kicked out of cedar. last year 4P complained right, so u can go complain and he'll be gone!' meiyi and her naive mind. yeah..i wish. but i wouldn't want to be the one complaining. it just complicates matter. my legs hurt again. i've joined beatrice and diana in the weather forecast club. ahha.im feeling so much better now. at least im not crying that badly. at least im thinking about it from another angle. it makes u feel better. thanks mrs lee! i respect her alot. just lyk ms chng. aiya, i am sexist la. haha. just admit it. i like old women. haha. moral of story: never try to stop crying coz it'll become worse. lilin, blame it on urself. u're stupid la! [i have split personality! lol] n some times, things are just so unfortunate. i think my ba zi and his bu he. haha. pls let the year end quickly. i want mengpotang! to forget about all the friction i had with him in my whole cedar life! lilin! must study hard! ignore him, he's not impt! (:anw, to all those nice people who offered me tissue, listen to my troubles, bear with my tears and whining, THANK YOU SO MUCH! LOVE YOU!(:
black&white ; 5/05/2006 03:49:00 PM
